She was brown, in a silky slip of raw salmon pink; and when she walked, the wind played peekaboo from underneath her skirt. The hair was down, relaxed in that magical way that made it soft, but with some mighty heft: One could easily bury a hand in it, or an entire limb; or tangle up a heart.
On her feet, she wore a pair of sandals borrowed from some Amazon warrior, which buckled all the way up to her magnificent mid-calf. The muscles trapped under all those belts and copper buckles moved and flexed; and at any moment, she could’ve shaken off the dainty shopping bags from her shoulder blade — and start leaping: to save a child or to defeat a monster.
“God damn!” I muttered to my partner.
But he was already on the same page: squeezing my bicep and smiling the grin of a six-year-old who has just discovered he liked girls — most definitely! He waited for the creature to get another meter ahead of us, stared at the ground — out of his respect for me and for my brown dream girl — and he quietly said:
Immediately, I thought of that ugly, old dog I have been honing to become my muse, in moments of my literal dry spell:
“but why do they do that?
why do they look like that?
why do they let the wind do
Always in love with some magical bird’s legs, treating every infatuation like a temple in which to worship a departed lover.
Just as I do.
But then again, that’s all it took: a flight of one magical bird, in a silky slip of raw salmon pink — and my hunger was resurrected.
I felt the urge to play again, to worship, to want. To dream. To love.
And the literal dry spell — was over.
Another one sat sideways on a tiled step of a whirlpool, reading The New Yorker, folded in half, lengthwise. She barely looked at me when I slowly descended into the hot water.
Okay: There was one glance. But that’s all it took: a glance by one magical waterbird.
Then, she returned to reading, while all I could think was:
“Was there a smile?”
Because I swore there was. A small one. The one that I use myself to thank a man for his attention but to prevent any further advances. The pressed-lipped one. The smile-off. (You know the kind: It’s kind.)
She wore the tiniest bikini the color of the first summer tan. And in between flipping the pages, she would put the magazine aside and go under the swirling, hot water entirely. The silky hair of her Persian heritage would float above; and when she would come back up — it would cling to her long neck and the upper arms like second skin. Or like an oily film on the wings of some magical waterbird. She would read some more, do that thing again.
And when she slowly ascended out of the hot water, the hair continued on: sticking to her lower back and all along her toned, capable arms; and it would invade the boundaries of the tiniest bikini the color of the first summer tan.
“you don’t know how exciting life can get
at 5:35 p.m.”
The dry spell, how ever literal, was over.
Back home, on my phone, I’d find a message from a creature an ocean away. She was brown, caramel-brown, to be exact; and she had a library of hair styles, each more striking than the next. At times, she’d wear it down, relaxed in that magical way that made it soft but with some mighty heft: and every time, I would bury my entire heart in it. Other times, she would tame it with a scarf the color of dry grass on the veldt of her heritage. But my favorite was always the halo of tight curls, each perfected with some potion that only the brown girls know — and seemingly with a twirl of her long, pinky finger.
She would get inside my car and unleash her hair, filling the air with the aromas of coconut and that very magical potion that only the brown girls know — and with the perfume of her dreams.
“God damn!” I’d say and yank us into traffic.
And I would start speeding, as if we were a pair of Amazon warriors, about to leap out: to save a child or to defeat a monster. But really, my only excuse for speeding was to make her laugh, while shaking the halo of those tight curls in which I would bury my heart — for keepsakes.
“200 years ago they would have burned her
at the stake
now she puts on her
mascara as we
Her message on my phone had come from the veldt of her heritage. She had flown home, after a break-up; and instead of healing herself in the arms of the next lover, she went off to help the others, more in need:
To save the children and to defeat the monsters.
“God damn!” I muttered, this time to myself, and I sat down to write.
Because that’s all it would take: a flight, a bird, a wing, or a kind heart.
And my dry spell, how ever literal, would finally be over.