She was a dainty lil’ thing, which is not even a preferable beauty requirement for me. But some girls do wear it well.
First of all: There was the pixie haircut. It was the whole Jean Seberg in Breathless thing. But then again, she seemed a bit less vulnerable, less breakable; less controversial. Despite her petite physique, she seemed strong, as someone with a wise and compassionate heart. So maybe, she was more of an Audrey Hepburn type: Like grace, and classic beauty: Timeless!
A pair of large dark eyes were alert and clear. There are some girls whose smarts are obvious in the perpetual little smirk that lingers in the corners of their eyelids. I like those girls: The Kat Dennings types. But truth be told, I’ve always found them a bit intimidating. I can’t really keep up with their references; and no matter how much I pride myself in having street smarts, my self-assurance always fades in their company. They speak of rock ‘n’ roll — they are rock ‘n’ roll! — and they are ever so cool!
Often, they seem to really dig sports, but not in that other way that pretty college girls do: hanging out at sports bars for the sake of male attention. And somehow, they are always up on the latest politics and gossip alike. So smart! So cool!
But this one — was a bird of a different color. She was obviously quick and judging by the breathlessness of her companions that evening — she was utterly adored. And as I watched her from the higher seats of the auditorium, I realized she made others feel important. That — was her charm: her timeless grace. She listened, with nothing but sincerity lingering in the corners of her eyelids, and that tiny compassionate smile never fading from her lips.
The lips. Alas, the lips: She wore a layer of pink gloss on hers. There were days once upon a time when I had tried to surrender to the call of my own feminine maintenance. In the history of my make-up routines, I used to utilize it primarily as a shield. I would wear layers of make-up in college, after nagging my BFF for enough tutorials. And in my early years in Hollyweird, make-up came with the job description of a cocktail-girl-slash-hostess-slash-actress-waiting-for-her-discovery. Those were exactly the days when I would try to apply the sticky substance to my lips. Somehow though, it never really worked out for me: I would be constantly spitting out my hair that would stick to my lips — then all over my face — and smear my paint job. (Utterly annoying and very ungraceful!) And then, I would have to reapply, which always rung untrue to my nature; too high maintenance.
Somehow though, this girl’s lips appeared perfectly made-up from the beginning of the event to the end. I haven’t even seen her fussing with it once, as pretty college girls do, for the sake of male attention. (I personally believe that unless you’re whipping out a ChapStick, a chick’s make-up routine should be kept for the secrecy of the ladies’ room. But then again: My high maintenance and I aren’t too close. So, what the fuck do I know?)
Her faded golden necklace was vintage. So were her beige Mary Janes. And so was the midnight blue mini-dress with tiny white polka dots. The length of it must’ve been amended from its original rockabilly swing style. And the wide beige belt with a buckle that matched her necklace perfectly added to all the carefully selected details.
All this to say: I was smitten. Well, mesmerized, for sure. My own large dark eyes and fluffy haircuts have often earned me others’ comparisons of me to the classic beauties of old cinema. But my style was never so well thought-out.
To the contrary, as my years in Hollyweird accumulated, I seemed to have settled for the least amount of maintenance. I don’t fuss. I don’t make much use of my iron. And I am often in a habit of telling my awaiting comrades and lovers:
“I’ll be ready — in ten!”
There have been times when my routine takes less time than those of my companions. And a few have commented on it:
“Quick to undress, eh?”
But in a presence of classic beauty — I never fail to be inspired.
“Why can’t I be more like her?” I used to wonder, in my early days in Hollyweird. I had arrived here from New York and was already well on the way to minimizing my high maintenance habits. But then there was the cocktail-girl-slash-hostess-slash-actress-waiting-for-her-discovery era, and I would prolong the return of the unfussy tomboy I used to be before my adolescence burdened me with its presumptions of womanhood.
These days, I don’t even wonder any more. I admire, instead, with nothing but sincerity lingering in the corners of my eyelids. I admire other women — the choices they make in the maintenance of their womanhood; and I never miss an opportunity to grant them a compliment.
But to each — her own, I think; and I embrace the short maintenance routine that I have figured out for myself, with time. Because beauty and grace is always timeless; and mine — is actually on time.